scared - just when the catepillar thought the world was over...he became a butterfly
Dec. 2nd, 2009 11:57 pm scared
so i have been getting contractions all day that started out lightly but have been getting progressively worse. I am extremely scared. My hope is that I can sleep them off and maybe relax enough to not go into labor. How am I even supposed to know what it feels like? And to know that my phone is shut off and I can't even call you when if it were to happen frightens me even more. My mind is spinning with a thousand different thoughts and fears and excitements and memories and I don't even know where to begin to sort them out. I just want to meet little one at this point. I feel like crying and laughing, crawling into a ball and dancing all at the same time. My family put up a "when do you think scooby is coming" sign with a spot for everyone to make a guess and put if they think its a boy or girl born in the morning or night of what day. Whenever you are ready to talk, please call me...I miss hearing your voice. I hate feeling so distant from you, like the last thing on earth you want to do is have to talk to me.